… even though I don’t really want to (but that’s the point, right?) It’s so easy to just say “I don’t feel like it today”, but I find myself using that excuse a LOT.
Sometimes I wonder if I’m lazy, or if I don’t really want to do things like write, but then I think about it, and I do. I enjoy doing all these creative things, I just find it very difficult to follow through on them. I mean, really difficult. Like sometimes I feel like there’s a post-hypnotic suggestion in there saying “whenever you feel like being actively creative, instead of just thinking creative things, you’ll turn on the TV instead”. I’ll waste a day like that, and then look back and say “WTF?!?”
I hate sabotaging myself. It’s like that song by Lit, “My Own Worst Enemy”
“It’s no surprise to me I am my own worst enemy, cuz every now and then I kick the living shit out of me….” (Here, take a listen)
Anyway, I’m at work, so I can’t post a ton, but I did want to post something. I’m honestly hoping this gets me back in the habit of typing words down, and, eventually, words that go into book form.
We shall see.